Mourning.

I know I am not suppose to say things like this, that it does not "help" or make people have warm fuzzies, etc., etc., etc., blah, blah, blah.

However, I AM NOT DOING VERY WELL.

So I ask??? Is there a correct way to mourn? Am I suppose to be doing something I am not, and not feeling Angry, lonely, lost, emotionally unstable, withdrawn, and questioning almost EVERYTHING in my life? Am I not suppose to be doing that? Because that is right where I am.

So this girl is getting an "F" in the mourning department of life. A big, Fat, Hairy F, and franky I don't really care!!

Congratulations Sarah!!!

On Saturday May 7th our daughter, Sarah, graduated from the University of Wyoming in Laramie with a Bachelors Degree in Special Education. We are so very proud of this woman... so driven, focused, fun, loving and loves life. After she finished everything she needed for her degree she decided to move forward towards her graduate degree in the same field so she decided she was not going to walk for this graduation since she was not done with school yet. We wanted her to walk SO bad to celebrate her accomplishment so we bribed her. We said we will give you a laptop if you walk.... she said YES. hah.. I love bribes..

So in the middle of crazy sadness (as you see in the below blogs) we attended a well deserved celebration and had a great time being with Sarah. We went to dinner in Fort Collins, Colorado and we all decided we want to live there. Absolutely beautiful place.

We love you Sarah and are so proud of you. Debbie ALWAYS says "Education buys you freedom" so keep plugging away your almost there!!!!!

a blur....

The last three weeks is a complete whirlwind to me. I stayed with Mike's ALOT the last month and most of the last two weeks of his life with him, . . It was a precious, bitter, unforgettable time and I can't even begin to write what it was like. I would never take that time back. Sam and my kids haven't had a home cooked meal or had anything that resembled a "normal" life for almost a month but they were so supportive of me being up there with Mike. I love them even more for it. Mike had a HUGE turn out to his funeral, HUGE!

I wanted to share a few pictures of Mikes funeral with you

These are Mikes riding boots, jacket etc. We had several of his "personal" stuff around the funeral home. This is the flowers Mike's sisters got him. Its a wheel with a missing spoke (meaning someone is missing) These are Mikes gloves and goggles and bandanna he use to ride with. after the funeral we walked outside and there were a bunch of Harley's parked in front of the Hearst, they were there to escort Mike to the cemetery. It was one of my favorite parts. We were right behind the harley and the hearst and pulled into the cemetary and there were a line of cars so far that we could not see the end. It still gives me goosebumps. We walked out and all the Harley riders were standing there with hats off and waiting for their fallen brother.
The flower's at Mikes funeral were GORGEOUS. The day before he died my Mom, Michelle and I went out and found his gold panning pan in his shed with his horns and his pheasant feathers, we gathered them and had them put in the spray that layed on top of his casket.
This is the only (bad) picture we have of all of Mike's sister during the viewing.
Mike's kids, Jack and Janae, with Brock and Taylor.
The flowers from Mike's nieces and nephews. That is Mikes fishing pole in the flowers.
My cousin, Sally, made a video of Mike with 100's of pictures. This is Brock watching the video remembering his Uncle Mike.
This is the first time I have lost someone this close to me and boy, what a heart wrenching experience. Mike and I planned his funeral the week before he died, we tweaked it a little here and there but I know Mike would have LOVED it. I am home now and I go places and can't believe life is just going on, I kinda want to stand in the grocery store line and scream at the top of my lung.. 'HOW ARE ALL OF YOU GUYS GOING ON, MY BROTHER JUST DIED'...

So if your calling me and I don't answer, or if you are emailing me and I don't reply, I am just trying to get back amongst the living.... I am getting there a little bit each day.

Love you Mike!

Michael Dean Dahle

Michael Dean Dahle

February 16, 1962 - May 6, 2011

After a heroic 5 year battle with Multiple Myeloma (cancer) my brother passed away surrounded by family and friends. I was lucky enough to spend most of the last 2 weeks of his life with him. I will miss him. This picture was taken about 5 days before he returned to his heavenly home. I LOVE YOU MIKE!!

I hope the fishing is good, and I will see you on the flip side Mike, LOVE YOU!